Here are some things I'm feeling - exposed, targeted, bare, raw, open, uncovered, plain, cold, stark, vulnerable, hard, empty, edgy, stressed, worried, uncomfortable, restless. Threatened.
Here are some of the reasons for those feelings - bad weather, looming custody trial, random ickiness, undone tax forms, scary fitness goals, large life dreams.
Here are some of the unhealthy tools I used to use to
deal with suppress those feelings - critical internal dialogue, glass or two of wine, gallon or three of coca-cola, steady snacking, way too many novels, busy work.
Here are some healthier substitutes I'm
trying out committed to - direct action/specific tasks (prepare those taxes!), exercise (follow that training plan), affirmations (add "stupid" to the list of things I'm feeling), scheduled fuel (eat good stuff at the right times), limited distractions (regulate time spent on computer or with nose in book).
Here are some things I'm (re-)learning - sometimes feelings suck and the only way through is through, missing the old comfort doesn't mean I'd consider giving up the new clarity, extra padding does not mean extra safety, small steps every day are better than giant steps once in a blue moon.
Here are some things I'm taking on faith - I'm not alone, this too shall pass, it's worth it.
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6 comments:
You can do it! The best way to face stuff is to face it. I am a total conflict avoider, but I am getting better at just facing the issue, facing the emotion, whatever. Once you face it you can let it go and let it be.
I am on tax duty tonight with the ex - the last one together. I wanted to send them to a professional to do - he did not, so we are sitting togther to do them tonight. Hopefully it all go okay. I'm thankful I don't have custody issues. I know that must truly suck.
Thanks for stopping by my blog :)
Your blog looks great and I like your writing! Great attitude!
I constantly have to remind myself not to push things down and bury them deep inside. Keep up the positive, healtier substitutes :)
You have the right attitude because this too will pass, and you already have a plan in place for getting back on track. Keep on keeping on!
Keep posting. I think it's great you're writing down these thoughts. I know for me keeping everything bottled up, which is what I used to do, just leads to more frustration and despair.
You've certainly got good cause for your feelings but these tough times *will* pass. Randy, the guy who is dying of cancer, had a great line in one of his other writings online: "You can't control the cards you're dealt, just how you play the hand."
Best of luck, my friend. I'll check ya later!
Please hang in there, we are all on your side. Goals are never unrealistic until you start thinking they are! You are doing great and will continue on your training and these bumps in the road will pass. Keep that chin up and get past this, you've got way more positives in your life than negatives.
I hear you on the life getting to you once in a while, but you are on a path to a healthy lifestyle that includes coping mechanisms that are not destructive.
Besides we are to puffy paint some race shirts and rock the hell out of Pac Grove in a couple of months! Run Bitch Run! (or swim bitch swim or bike bitch bike, whatever is on your training schedule for today ;o)
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